hyperventilate, that they'd need to get a medic in to try to assist him. he really was quite broken, quite traumatized, but the descriptions of how they were happy together, that, you know, perhaps she had thoughts of marrying him really, really touched him. and i think there was also that reminder that we still don't know whether he's innocent or guilty. you know, there's a lot of speculation out there at the moment. a lot of these wild theories about these cricket bats and what happened. and of course, the state saying this is premeditated murder, but it's not proved yet. so oscar pistorius' affidavit was very heartfelt, quite emotional. there were a few contradictory facts in there, which i'm sure the state will pick apart, but those touching, intimate kind of details painted a picture for everybody and also indicated just what oscar's lost, a woman that he apparently loved, and she loved him, too.